Transforming the Darkness

~Musings on the intensity of ascension and how to come back into wholeness~

What a truly miraculous time to be alive on Earth. I think this to myself every day as I myself navigate the highest highs, the lowest lows, and so many other states of being that continue to expand my mind with what I knew to be possible.

One of the most important reminders on this journey is that we are currently in a state of massive evolution in consciousness on a collective scale. This is a necessary reminder, for if you are reading this, you are likely experiencing what many of us are- the shitstorm of human evolution. The experience of being stretched and pushed and expanded in ways that we never knew.

I call it a shitstorm as both a way to bring a little humor into it, as well as an honest and accurate title. Sometimes I think back to my own self years ago, knowing that we would be shifting from 3D consciousness to 5D consciousness and yet having no clue what exactly this would entail. Now we are living everyday what this entails. Immense expansion and beauty it is- yet not without the deepest revelations and shadow work one could imagine as we, through our very life experience, transmute the density of our past, our ancestral lineage, parallel timelines, and the collective.

I think being honest, authentic, and HUMBLE about this process is so so important. Because no matter how spiritual or advanced one claims to be- no one is getting through this process without having to face deep and dark challenges in their lives. And it is so important to me that people know that this does not make them wrong or bad- this IS the process, the initation, the HIGHEST service work for humanity.

For the only way to heal the collective, is for us to continue to heal ourselves.

This may sometimes look like experiencing the most heavenly states of love and creativity and bliss. This ALSO may look extremely messy, scary, and confusing at times. My point is there is nothing wrong with any of it. The intensity we are experiencing IS the shift. All of it.

It is so tempting, on the daily, for our egos to want to judge ourselves and others on this journey. To withhold love conditionally because we tell ourselves we are not good enough, we should be doing something else, that certain traits or experiences within us deem us unworthy and unlovable.

Let this be a reminder that this is simply not true.

The pain, the confusion, the programming, the addictions, the “mistakes”… is ALL PART OF THE ASCENSION PROCESS. Here we are on Earth at a time of the great shift, and we are being asked to SERVE. To transmute SO MUCH DENSITY that is in the collective consciousness of humanity. The way we transmute IS through living through the pains of the past and by our own strength and awareness, naturally shifting the consciousness itself. We are all revolutionary alchemists and this is occurring naturally.

So this article is an invitation to be even MORE kind and compassionate with yourself. Because you ARE an eternal being-infinite loving awareness- having a human experience. You aren’t your thoughts or emotions. You are not really any of this. You are eternal awareness-on a human journey to witness and transmute dense 3D and 4D consciousness through this incarnated body into 5D Christ consciousness. Please understand how brave and courageous and amazing you truly are for being here at this time, and acknowledge it on a daily basis for your own sake.

Because to have Christ-like unconditional love and compassion for what humanity is going through at this time- you must first learn to have it for yourself. And I have found the deeper I go into this journey, the more I MUST surrender to this unconditional love for myself, and others. For to hate it, to fear it, to shame it, to judge it- becomes far too great a burden to bear in these times. The soul is asking us to surrender into who we truly are- UNCONDITIONAL love.

I understand deeper what MLK Jr. said: “I have decided to stick to love…Hate is too great a burden to bear.”

This is certainly not to say that we don’t have deep discernment in our choices. I am simply learning again and again, that we do not actually have control over most things in our human life. We do not have control to many things that happen to us and those around us. However we do have the ability to CHOOSE how we are going to respond. And this choice comes through at the deepest level: to make decisions out of this dawning unconditional love, rather than the unworthiness of the immature ego self.

In other words: to genuinely LOVE yourself and others without any condition. That sounds like a tall order, but I think most of us would agree that in the times we are in- there becomes no other way. For the conditional love is, again, simply too much of a burden to bear. Love without condition is the only way to live a peaceful and good life.

Loving the “Unlovable” Aspects of Yourself

Having just gone through the underworld myself, I have been learning deep lessons of the unconditional love of God, of the Self. We all have a part of us within who truly loves every single part of us unconditionally- no matter how bad or unacceptable our ego self may have labeled it as. And this part of us- that many call the Higher Self- is who we TRULY are beyond this veil of physical illusion.

And here is the big “secret” I wish to share: these “bad” or “unacceptable” parts of us that we have been programmed to deny, hide, push away, reject, shame, fear, hate, etc…. actually need our LOVE. Our genuine love shining upon these dark parts of ourselves is the ONLY way to help them, ourselves, and others.

Sidenote: I am referring to the organic shadow – ie the organic “dark” or “hidden” or “wounded”  or  “fragmented” parts of our self. If you feel you may be dealing with external negative 4D entities or implants please see my other article Comprehensive Guide for Impentatrable Psychic Protection or consider booking a session to have them safely removed.

I have learned that when I experience feelings of fear, guilt, shame, anger, sorrow, etc. arise, that while it is a knee jerk reaction to want to “get rid” of these feelings/aspects of self.. to try to push them away or make them “wrong”, only actually makes them even more upset and prevalent in my life.

The only answer then, is to actually confront these aspects full on and see them for what they are. Wounded and fragmented aspects of yourself. Aspects that you likely had to reject early in life because of some kind of survival coping mechanism. These parts actually do not want to harm you or make you suffer- however THEY are suffering, and they NEED you. They need the light and love of your present awareness. They arise because they are calling to you.

So when these parts of me arise in my life, again, fear, pain, resentment, guilt, addiction, etc… instead of trying to escape them, I do my best to SEE them. To get curious about them. To ask them what they are trying to tell me. To offer them my love, my honor, my compassion, my heart. And as paradoxical as it may seem, I have found this is actually the only way to truly resolve these inner afflictions.

To push away shame or grief, it remains in the subconscious in pain.. continuing to arise any chance they can get so they can try to be resolved. To see them, to EMBRACE them and love them and integrate them into your wholeness, is to truly resolve them. This is a huge core of the work we are doing. In doing this, you discover the wellspring of uncondtional love that is truly within you. You discover your own super power- that you are capable of loving what you thought was unlovable. And THIS is an advanced alchemy one must experience to understand. This is a process that has the potential to shift YEARS worth of aching pain into clarity within minutes. Love truly is the answer. So simple and elegant it is.

The last point I want to weave in with this is a quote which was given to me as I was going through this process myself: “To accept the unacceptable, is to make the impossible possible”. This ties in beautifully because we often suffer so much by not ALLOWING what is arising in our life to be okay. When we resist WHAT IS, we suffer badly. The only way to begin to resolve is firstly to accept fully WHAT IS, no matter how wrong, bad, confusing, scary, etc. it may be. We must learn to accept what is- ESPECIALLY if it seems unaccpetableto our ego self. For the moment we can accept it is the moment clarity and vitality will begin to stream in once more and provide us with answers that we could not receive until we accepted what is.

I invite you then to try this method the next time a dense part of you arises. Take time to ALLOW it fully, to embrace it, to ask it questions, to listen to it, to embrace it, to forgive it, to love it, to ultimately integrate it in a healthy way. I encourage doing this process in writing.

In doing this I trust you will understand what I am talking about as you begin to tap into deeper levels of yourself and your love and wholeness than ever before.

Conclusion

Ascension is a holistic process. It is not just about going “higher” in consciousness. It is also about going deeper. It is about coming home to the CORE of who you are and have always been beyond all these illusions of conditions and form and matrix programming: eternal, perfect, loving awareness.

I love, honor, and respect you all. Thank you for being here at this time, for loving yourself and others, and taking the time to read this. If this benefitted you, please share 🙂