Transforming the Darkness

This has been one of those catalyzing, initiating, WOW weeks my friends.

One of those weeks where it is just one activation after another… and it’s only wednesday.. and I haven’t even made it to my travel destination yet!

But I felt a deep call to share with you some of the incredible things I have been learning and experiencing so far.

I started the week strong with… my BRAKES on my car going out randomly!

It happened RIGHT AFTER I was listening to a video from Activation Vibration and I was really resonating with a very strong message she was sharing – to trust, DEEPLY, that EVERYTHING that is happening IS happening for your best case scenario.

I have been practicing this for months – when things fall apart, or I don’t understand what is happening, or when a breakdown happens, or when I am extremely triggered… I affirm to myself that something higher is trying to happen. And it always does.

Though simple my friends, there is such deep power in this. In claiming this, affirming this, KNOWING this. It changes your reality.

Because really.. it’s not just a positive affirmation.

It’s a permission slip to let it go. To let GO of the old attachment, to release that old perspective, the unseen trauma being revealed, the old programs. To let it fall and crumble. To let the emotions around it release. To let the identity around it collapse. To see it, to hold space for it, to honor and love it. To let it GO because all that is false must go now. The Light is coming for ALL of our asses.. and it’s a blessing.

It’s giving yourself the green light consciously to be open to the new unknown. The Divine. The eternal still LIGHT within you. That which is unshakeable and unbreakable and cannot collapse but stands firm within you eternally.

To trust it – a little more intimately than you thought that you could.

A little deeper than you knew how just a few moments ago.

A little more humbly like your life depends on it because well…

it does.

This really is such a sacred process that we are experiencing my friends, all of the time.

Some of the moments really shock you though.

So.. anyways.. I was hearing her share this and feeling the truth of it integrate deeper from my own experience of it the past few months and realizing wow.. I am getting better at doing this! Nice. Gotta celebrate those little wins.

It is a skill.

Because at first it feels like blind faith.

But when you see the divine process unravel again and again..

then it isn’t so blind.

It’s just scaling it more and more.

The biggest key is once you get comfortable enough with this affirmation.. practice COMMITTING FULLY to it in every now moment, regardless of what circumstance is showing up in the external (or the internal thoughts and feelings, for that matter.. as these are what can be really tricky!).

Because another really powerful skill within this is being able to make quick decisions and STICK with them.

The decision here being – to *CHOOSE*, that everything IS working out in the best case scenario.

To affirm it. To DECIDE it. To declare it, creator being made in ‘God’s image’.

When we don’t make quick decisions, our energy gets scattered and pull into different directions.. that is why it is important to be aware, CHOOSE, and CUT OFF ALL OTHER THOUGHTS.

Everything is working out for my highest good.

The thought tries to creep in.. ” yeah but… what if?”

No. We’re not doing that. Not even entertaining it.

Boundaries with your own thoughts.

ANYWAYS – back to the story.

My brakes went out completely on the highway and I feel IMMENSELY blessed that I was able to slowly turn into an empty parking lot and get it towed for free with triple A.

I was shook how little fear I had about the whole thing.

I felt so deeply blessed and protected.. while normally I would have been freaking out and stressed about fixing my car.

Nah.

Best Case scenario.

Gratitude.

AND SO.

The next morning I have to shuttle to the airport to catch a flight to see my beloved soul sister Bianca.I’m STOKED, in desperate need of girl time.

I’m already getting to the airport super early because now I have to take a megabus there, and I’m lowkey down to hangout at the airport all day.. an excuse to drink coffee, write, read, not be disturbed by anything until my late night flight.

Ah yes.. my flight that got delayed two hours.. no big deal.

I get a text from the airline company it’ll start boarding at 12:20 am, so I get there at 12:00 feeling like I’m about to give myself plenty of time to board and to my surprise… the plane had already LEFT!

Damn.

The attendants informed me that sometimes the plane might take off early.. crazy news to me but whatever.. she said I’d have to buy another ticket! Double damn.

And now I have to wait until the next flight which is 24 more hours stuck at the airport… triple damn!

Thankfully customer service got me another ticket at no charge though.. amazing!

As I am writing this I am realizing what a privilege it is to have problems such as this. I am so grateful – I mean not to complain – I’m remembering how to tell stories.. however… I think we could all agree..

30 hours at the airport is a little much.

Even for a hearty heathen like me.

I felt pretty annoyed, honestly – but that message continued to ring through me…

Something higher is trying to happen.

Pay attention.

The BEST POSSIBLE outcome is happening for you.

Damn.

So I’m sitting with that…

as I’m starving (did I mention I am also fasting 😂).

as I’m trying to burrow into the floor in the ghost town of an airport like a little scorpion…

as I know I’m about to get no sleep and spend the entire next day trapped in the airport matrix.

Again I am not complaining – just being dramatic.

Because after so many hours it does start to feel that way.

The fluorescent bulbs are burning me alive.

Aggressively funky jazz blaring without cease.

I need to touch grass, even as I write this.

It was just a very strange thing to happen like this.

Almost two solid days in the airport matrix with my spirit strongly encouraging me to, above all, trust and listen to it here.

So many revelations came through.. I am still unpacking them.

I know this trip is about to be life changing, because all trips always are. And this one I have planted very wonderful seeds for.

So I am so excited.

Learning so much.

One of the biggest things I was given during this time was the gift of trust and patience.

I already see how this experience, truly WAS, for my highest good – not because anything crazy or glamorous came from it (at least not at the point of me writing this yet), but the fortifying qualities I was able (all but forced) to embody during these hours with such intense awareness really was incredible. It blows my mind. You can’t make it up. This stuff’s better than ayahuasca.

And it is an obvious display of what we all go through on a daily basis – sometimes in not so apparent yet sure ways.

When you have to wait in line and feel that irritation.

When something unexpected happens.

When an intrusive thought jumps in.

When someone cuts you off.

All of these things are opportunties for us to show up in new ways and NOTHING LESS.

These are the MOMENTS when it is NOT time to shrink back into the small version of you, but to see what happens when you dare to embody the “new” WHOLE version of you even more.

The alchemical point.

ESPECIALLY when you claim it for your highest good and commit to that.

Don’t even entertain the doubts saying no.. its not for your good.. you can’t trust yourself.. God has abandoned you… you can’t trust the God within.

Awaken my friends!

Awaken.

That is what it is all about.. is it not?

Besides… there is always an incredible breakthrough for EVERY breakdown.

Sometimes when I feel that deep contrast hittin, despite the pain, I already know the comeback is about to be so freaking good.

It reminds me of a quote I “happened” to stumble upon while this was happening:

“If we can stay with the tension of opposites long enough.. sustain it, be true to it-we can sometimes become vessels within which the divine opposites come together and give birth to a new reality.” -Marie Louise Von Franz

I don’t know how to articulate it any clearer than that…

every moment is bringing us back home if we allow it.

The joy and the pleasure.

The contrast arising.

And instead of fearing and hating it.. coming deeper into a new and incredible part of yourself that has been just WAITING for your return.

It’s just showing you the places where you’re still not free.

It’s as if you yourself designed it… you cheeky freak.

How amazing!

The last note I will add to this for now is that another huge theme of this whole saga is coming into the root chakra.

Into the foundation.

Realizing my own foundation needs a little work as I have often spent my days in the cerebral realms more than my own avatar here.

And I have set the intention to bring more balance into that and so many personal revelations around my sense of safety and life itself that I’ll have to get into another post also came up – they came right up as a result of sitting alone sleep deprived in the airport.

I am so grateful.

Thank you for taking the time to read and go on this adventure with me my friend.

I hope it has inspired and assisted you in the best way.. of course it has.. because EVERYTHING you’re experiencing is FOR your highest good!!

God bless you!